You know what they say about near death experiences...kinda make you realize stuff. I guess, just uh what I realized was that, um, I haven't really been fair to you. I thought that I had grown up a lot, but then you left and you really hurt me in exactly the way I always feared you would. And it turned be back into that, that high school girl who, who just picked on you because I was so afraid that I wasn't enough. And Ty made me realize that I cannot operate out of fear anymore, and I'm sorry.